it hurts me a lot. seriously.

NOT SAYING THAT IM BEING INSANE, BUT IT HURTS ME A LOT. I'M THAT ONE WHO IS HEART'S SENSITIVITY REACH 230% . BUT IT JUST HIDDEN INSIDE 😣 TREAT ME LIKE RUBBISH. I JUST FELT IM BEING USED! EVEN WHEN WE "TERSEREMPAK EACH OTHER, YEAH, I'M TOTALLY INVISIBLE . I DOESN'T EXIST. THATS IT! EVEN I WALK WITH MY FRIEND, ALL THEY TEGUR IS HER AND NOT ME. THATS WHY I SAID SO AND I JUST WALK AWAY FROM IT. BUAT APA NAK TERHEGEH HEGEH KAT ORG YG X SUKA KITA KAN... 😔 I KNOW I'M NO PRETTY. BUT IF U NEED HELP OR SOWHATEVER, U ASKED ME. WHAT DO U THINK HAH? DONT U FEEL ASHAME? WHAT ARE U ON EARTH HUMAN? RASANYA LEBIH BAGUS AKU X KENAL KAU. I'M NOT ANGRY, I'M JUST DISSAPPOINTED. I SHOULDN'T MENTION U AS MY FRIEND, BUT ONLY A HUMAN I MET ONCE. I REALLY FELT SO EAGER TO FINISH MY STUDY AND GO AWAY FROM SEEING UR FACE 😠 FOR RIGHT NOW, I REALLY REALLY NO MOOD AT ALL. ITS BECOME MORE WHEN I SAW U . WELL ITS SO EASY TO SEE U... BUT IF I COULD AVOID U, I WILL!!! ITS BETTER FOR ME BEING SILENCE INSTEAD KEEP ON SAYING AND HURTING OTHER PEOPLE. ZARA SAID HAPPINESS IS A GIFT, BUT THE HURT INSIDE MY HEART WHO KNOWS ??? AKU DAH PENAT PENDAM. NAK LUAHKAN PERASAAN NI PUN DAH TAK MAMPU 😭 FELT SO HYPOCRIT WHEN PEOPLE ASK "ARE U OKAY" AND YEAH I'M OKAY, BUT ACTUALLY DEEP DEEP INSIDE ME THERE'S A PAIN THAT REALLY HURT ON MY ORGAN. I SIMPLY HOPE THAT I'LL BE OKAY AND FINE AGAIN SOON 😲